[ At times, she fears she is too new to all of this for people to wish for it, that she somehow has too many failings to be wanted, to be desired - but when she is with Matt, with his patience and kindness, she does not worry about any of that. She has learned to accept her desire, her want, and that she might share it with others; knowing that he will support and guide her if she needed it is something remarkable.
Decades without touch, and now she has so much that she might fall apart.
Watching him as he wiggles and finds his bottle, she takes it with a tilted head, unsure and a little nervous, that unease returning to her. Touch, especially intimate touch, makes her nervous - but she has medication, she will not harm him, she would not permit it unless he asked. She wants to take care of him, rather than wound him.
Nodding, she nuzzles in for a moment, stealing another kiss simply because she wants it, she leans back. ]
It is different for men. [ Another thing she has learned! ] You will teach me?
[ As she does as she's told, getting it all over her fingers and wondering at how strange it seems, to have her blackened touch covered in something so slimy. ]
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Decades without touch, and now she has so much that she might fall apart.
Watching him as he wiggles and finds his bottle, she takes it with a tilted head, unsure and a little nervous, that unease returning to her. Touch, especially intimate touch, makes her nervous - but she has medication, she will not harm him, she would not permit it unless he asked. She wants to take care of him, rather than wound him.
Nodding, she nuzzles in for a moment, stealing another kiss simply because she wants it, she leans back. ]
It is different for men. [ Another thing she has learned! ] You will teach me?
[ As she does as she's told, getting it all over her fingers and wondering at how strange it seems, to have her blackened touch covered in something so slimy. ]