𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐒 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓

[pronounce]

what a month! this is texts from last night.
(meme threads aren't game canon, but they're not not game canon either, right)

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[rakta]

i said nothing of love.

[redsoil]

I mean that fondness falls under love, in my experience. I never had one without the other, and I do not want it again.

Is there really less, or no, pleasure in hateful sex? Quentin said some people enjoy biting and fighting, so that seems contradictory.

[rakta]

i enjoy biting and fighting, but it is done with some affection.

[redsoil]

I asked him, and I will ask you too: how can it be done with affection?

[rakta]

it is akin to a claiming. to carry the mark of someone's teeth upon your skin, their touch on your skin... a reminder that you are cherished, even when apart.

[redsoil]

Absolutely not. I do not see it as you do. As though being "claimed" is being cherished.

The idea of anyone entertaining the idea that they own any part of me enough to sink teeth into my body and pretending it means they have a right to it... that is disgusting.

[rakta]

please do not 'kink shame' me.

[redsoil]

You started by "kink shaming" me!

[rakta]

i did?

i did not realise. matthew has told me that is a poor thing to do. i apologise.

[redsoil]

[ oh

nobody really apologizes to him ]

— I will try to understand your view of this better, as well.

Why

is being claimed akin to being cherished to you? For I cannot stand the idea that... even some part of me is not wholly mine.

[rakta]

there is a difference.

i was claimed by the queen of the unseelie court, and her claim is like ice. it aches, and it hurts, and it does not fill with any kind of warmth nor joy. it is like acid where blood should be. painful, isolating.

to be claimed by another, by someone who you wish to share that claim with, to belong... it is like finding a home. a place to be. to be accepted, and wanted, in spite of the ills and evils? to have someone wish to claim you as their own, to share a bond with you, to be proud of a connection with you? that is bliss, is it not?