ask me anything meme

[dictator]

ASK ME ANYTHING

post your character with a brief AMA plug in the header (i.e., 'i ate my twin in the womb AMA')— people respond with questions, judgement, jokes galore. comment around, thread hop, and react as you see fit!
(meme threads aren't game canon, but they're not not game canon either, right)

Comments

[temporicide]

I always thought so, at least once I heard about it. 'Cause we accidentally wrote the curse ourselves, you know? We pass it down ourselves.

[medals]

Can you unwrite it?

[temporicide]

I wish. Not by myself. And my relatives, they aren't very cooperative, so I lean to my Papa's side instead.

But maybe one day, I'll get good at herding cats.

[medals]

Is it okay to ask what the curse is?

[temporicide]

I think so. I think not saying it just makes it a dirty secret, right? The mothers do to their daughters as their mothers did to them. In my particular branch, the curse is abandonment.

I guess it's a common thing, isn't it, between mothers and daughters? We just do it extra explosively.

[medals]

That's shit. I'm sorry.

[a beat.] My mum had - issues. I think we all did. But she was there, at least. I think I took it for granted a lot, looking back.

[temporicide]

It is. But — thank you. I don't know if anybody's said that before.

I wonder if that ought to be a right of children, in a way. For them to think, the world is like this, that the good things in my life are normal, because they ought to be.

Are you and your mother alike, do you think?

[medals]

More people should be sorry, I think. We don't deserve to have shit things happen to us.

[well, Jem does, but that's a whole other can of worms -]

Nah. She's so - mumsy. I was a horrible little shit growing up, and she was also so kind.

[temporicide]

We don't. I believe in fate, so I know we don't always get a choice. But deserve, no.

Mumsy. I think I know what you mean. [ A good word for a familiar archetype (Rosaleen Zaripova cycled from Cig Mom to Ingrid Magnussen and back several times a day, which is its own set of archetypes). ] You were unhappy, where you lived?

[medals]

Yeah. But it was my own fault, mostly. Sometimes you're just - not meant for a place, I guess. I think I've always been more trouble than I'm worth, especially to my family.

[from childhood to adulthood, what has Jem Walker been except a problem for everyone around her? ]

[temporicide]

Oyyyy. I bet they'd argue with you, though.

But... I know the feeling, I think. Like somehow they can just live in the world, and be happy with what's here, and not cause a fuss all the time. Even when I didn't mean to cause a fuss, my instincts were wrong. We missed the class, I guess.

[medals]

I - [a beat, hesitant, and then, fuck it. ] Yeah. Exactly, yeah.

I had to, uhm. They put me in therapy before I was eight, because I wasn't right. It didn't really do much good, I think.

[temporicide]

I'm not a big believer in therapy, I think. Psychiatrists are worse, but therapy, too. 'Cause if the root's that you're in the wrong town, what are you supposed to do? Move out at seven? Learn to lie?

[medals]

It didn't really work, when I was little. It didn't stop me wanting to be invisible, or stop feeling the way I did. It helped a little when I was older, I guess. I don't know if any of it ever stuck.

[temporicide]

Yeah. Yeah, the only thing that ever stuck for me was being by myself. Or just not being, I guess. You don't have to say, 'cause it's more — in your business than childhood, I think.

But do you feel that way now? Like you want to be invisible.

[medals]

It’s - fine. No one ever really asks, y’know? Maybe it’s too depressing.

But - yeah. Sometimes. I don’t know if you ever really get rid of the feeling. How do you cut something out of you when you’ve felt that way since you knew how to think, right?

[temporicide]

Yeah! Yeah, people don't know what to say. Not that I always do, or mostly ever. It's [ with a rueful click between tongue and the roof of her mouth, ] not exactly the same, but —

Like if you grow up with something in your water. You grow with that in your cells. And above you, there's heaven, there's all the people who love you in it, and you don't want to make the people who love you sad, right? So you have to bury it a little. But you're a product of the water and the sky and the water is a lot closer.

It's lots easier to drown than to fly. But we keep trying anyway.

[medals]

Y'think it's easier because of all the shit weighing us down?

[temporicide]

I think so. And it's familiar. People will stay in all kinds of bad situations because they're familiar, and what if out there is worse?

... I guess it's obvious I've done this.