𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐒 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓

[pronounce]

what a month! this is texts from last night.
(meme threads aren't game canon, but they're not not game canon either, right)

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[holyposition]

Don't you get tired? That's too many.

[kobes]

Not really? I can usually go again in about ten or so minutes. I only have to stop if I get too thirsty.

[holyposition]

Thay doesn't leave any time for cuddling after.

[kobes]

Well, there's an intermission for that. Cuddle, debrief, rehydrate.

It's not a nightly occurrence, at least, only when we're at Otherworld. Otherwise it's usually the same person all night.

[holyposition]

Debrief???

Not for me at all.

Don't lie. I know sometimes it's two people. 😊

[kobes]

Yeah. I like hearing about who Quentin’s been with and vice-versa. I like knowing he's had fun, he likes making sure I'm okay.

No? Not even now?

Well, that's from your own experience 🥰

[holyposition]

Hawk's still upset about the one time I was with Luci in June. That wouldn't work for us.

Out with random people in public is different than you and Quentin. I want to know who I'm sharing my body with.

[kobes]

Well. Maybe that's because it's Luci.

They're hardly RANDOM. It was all people I knew this time!
But I don't know. Sometimes I like not knowing. I like not having to think.

[holyposition]

Still. He seems more upset about the meaningless things that happened when I was angry with him and pumped full of Otherworld drugs than he is about the stuff that's real. I don't get it.

How do you not think when there's a stranger touching you? I always end up in my head.

[kobes]

I'm not sure either. He wasn't mad about me or Quentin? Or anyone else?

I don't know. It's like my brain turns off. It's the same when I'm cleaning or running or something. It's my body doing it, not me.





That sounds bad, doesn't it.

[holyposition]

He asked about Harry. But it was less about him and more about where we are. Hard to make any real decisions with the game going on, and now...that's on hold.

A little. I'd be offended if someone told me sleeping with me was like cleaning.

[kobes]

Yeah, it was hard to do much of anything with the game going on.
But now it's over, so...what next?

I like cleaning. It's relaxing and soothing. That's a compliment.
YOU aren't like cleaning, if that helps. I don't do stuff with you to turn my brain off.

[holyposition]

Wait for Hawk to sprout out of the ground, first of all.

[kobes]

[Tim, please, that makes him sound like a petunia.]

You know what I mean. After. Between, maybe, before the next horrible thing happens.

[holyposition]

Do you ever want to be with someone other than Quentin? Not INSTEAD of him, but in addition to.

[kobes]

Oh. Well.

Do you mean in bed or in a relationship?

[holyposition]

I know the answer to the first one, Koby.

[kobes]

I'm just confirming!

But yes. We've talked about this, I don't really look at relationships the same way as people where you're from. Neither does Quentin. There are ways other people can love him, things he needs from them that I can't give him for whatever reason. And I want him to have as much of that here as possible. And vice-versa.

I guess what makes it different is he knows. He knows about the crew, he knows about Shanks and Erik and everyone else. I tell him everything.

[holyposition]

I'm not hiding anything. It was just...going slow, which I liked, but now it might be serious, and I like that too.

It feels selfish to ask him to put up with that when he was just DEAD.

[kobes]

Is it selfish for him to ask YOU to put up with everything he's done? Or are you willing to do it because you love him?

Or maybe people are just selfish and that's not the worst thing ever.

[holyposition]

Bad example, a lot of it has been selfish. It doesn't mean I should do the same.

[kobes]

I don't think it's selfish to tell him the truth.

[holyposition]

I know. I will. But the truth sounds terrible. I can't help feeling guilty.

[kobes]

No, you can't. Because you're still yourself, even after all this.

[Hah! Get full circle moment'd, idiot.]

[holyposition]

At least I've got that.

Thanks. It probably sounds like I'm losing my mind.