𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐒 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓

[pronounce]

what a month! this is texts from last night.
(meme threads aren't game canon, but they're not not game canon either, right)

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[holyposition]

Still. He seems more upset about the meaningless things that happened when I was angry with him and pumped full of Otherworld drugs than he is about the stuff that's real. I don't get it.

How do you not think when there's a stranger touching you? I always end up in my head.

[kobes]

I'm not sure either. He wasn't mad about me or Quentin? Or anyone else?

I don't know. It's like my brain turns off. It's the same when I'm cleaning or running or something. It's my body doing it, not me.





That sounds bad, doesn't it.

[holyposition]

He asked about Harry. But it was less about him and more about where we are. Hard to make any real decisions with the game going on, and now...that's on hold.

A little. I'd be offended if someone told me sleeping with me was like cleaning.

[kobes]

Yeah, it was hard to do much of anything with the game going on.
But now it's over, so...what next?

I like cleaning. It's relaxing and soothing. That's a compliment.
YOU aren't like cleaning, if that helps. I don't do stuff with you to turn my brain off.

[holyposition]

Wait for Hawk to sprout out of the ground, first of all.

[kobes]

[Tim, please, that makes him sound like a petunia.]

You know what I mean. After. Between, maybe, before the next horrible thing happens.

[holyposition]

Do you ever want to be with someone other than Quentin? Not INSTEAD of him, but in addition to.

[kobes]

Oh. Well.

Do you mean in bed or in a relationship?

[holyposition]

I know the answer to the first one, Koby.

[kobes]

I'm just confirming!

But yes. We've talked about this, I don't really look at relationships the same way as people where you're from. Neither does Quentin. There are ways other people can love him, things he needs from them that I can't give him for whatever reason. And I want him to have as much of that here as possible. And vice-versa.

I guess what makes it different is he knows. He knows about the crew, he knows about Shanks and Erik and everyone else. I tell him everything.

[holyposition]

I'm not hiding anything. It was just...going slow, which I liked, but now it might be serious, and I like that too.

It feels selfish to ask him to put up with that when he was just DEAD.

[kobes]

Is it selfish for him to ask YOU to put up with everything he's done? Or are you willing to do it because you love him?

Or maybe people are just selfish and that's not the worst thing ever.

[holyposition]

Bad example, a lot of it has been selfish. It doesn't mean I should do the same.

[kobes]

I don't think it's selfish to tell him the truth.

[holyposition]

I know. I will. But the truth sounds terrible. I can't help feeling guilty.

[kobes]

No, you can't. Because you're still yourself, even after all this.

[Hah! Get full circle moment'd, idiot.]

[holyposition]

At least I've got that.

Thanks. It probably sounds like I'm losing my mind.

[kobes]

I'm glad you still do. I'm pretty fond of Tim Laughlin, you know.

No more than I am. I keep feeling things. And my headache isn't going away.

[holyposition]

:)

Feeling things?

[kobes]

Is it Harry? I'm assuming it's Harry.

Yeah, like
You know how the air gets all heavy and tight like right before a storm? Something like that. And when someone gets too close it sort of
Hurts. Like my chest is being crushed.

[holyposition]

Yeah, it is. He's a good guy. I'm not used to all the magic stuff yet but he makes it easier to understand. I really like him. He made my ring :)

[ A ring of interlocking metal pieces, like chainmail, that he's had on him since shortly after the game began. ]

That's not normal, is it?

[kobes]

And he's TALL. You like tall.
Have you
You know.
Spent the night yet?

Not from what Shanks has told me, but I'm still new to the haki thing. Maybe this is normal. Growing pains.

[holyposition]

Well, I wasn't gonna be shallow, but yes. He's tall, handsome, and covered in battle scars. I went home with him after the last vote.

If it's hurting you to stand close to people, you should ask him.

[kobes]

Battle scars, really? He's some sort of magician, I thought. What kinds of battles is he getting in?
Well, nevermind, that's not as important. How was
You know. Everything.

I will. I'm just
Things are
Weird, still. I'm still mad at him.

[holyposition]

He's not a circus guy pulling rabbits out of hats. Back home he was at war with a bunch of vampires.

It was amazing. It was really intimate. I didn't actually go over there intending for it to get that far, I've been kind of...jumpy and nervous
which you've been nice not to point out but I know you can see it
He made me feel protected, though.
And everything is proportional 😇

You've got every right to be. What did faking his death even accomplish?